Last week I dived into fear, not only my experiences with fear, but those around me. I also spoke about some projects I have been working on, they have have kept me up all night with fear and I would like to share those projects with you now.
In early February I wrote a post about Champissage, or Indian head massage, if you didn’t read that post I encourage you to go back and read it. After doing the research on Champissage; I thought I should offer it at the salon, it would highly benefit all of my clients. Upon doing research, I found out how and where I can get trained on Champissage. No one in Salt Lake performs this service and if they do they are not making it public. The only places that offer training in Champissage are in England and areas in Canada, at the moment I cannot afford to take the time off to train in Champissage out of the country. With the help of my therapist, she found some great online resources that helped me get the information I needed. I also purchased books that went into the philosophy of head massage and I found videos teaching the techniques and begin teaching myself how to perform Indian head massage.
As I began practicing on people I felt such a weight of fear, even though I had great feedback from those who let me practice I began to become terrified. My monkey mind began to take control, that little voice called doubt crept into my mind. What if people don’t like it? What if I hurt someone? People will think this is stupid. I didn’t get ‘formal’ training therefor I’m not good enough. These thoughts kept me up at night, but I was so passionate about this, I knew deep down I was doing something new that has not been done before in this town, I know this service has extraordinary benefits, why was I doubting myself?
It is the fear of doing something new by myself, stepping outside of the box, doing something people around me are not doing. I am vulnerable in doing something different than what my colleagues are doing and it’s scary! Also, I was fearful because I can’t control what people think of me doing this or how they will react to this service and that is scary! We cannot control what others will think or how they will act so, I must let that go.
Letting go of the need to control, letting go of the need to know, let go of the expectations. I need to accept that I am doing something I feel passionate about, I need to accept that I cannot control others, I need to accept that I am scared, and that is where the beauty in fear comes.
The acceptance of fear.
Once I accepted that I was scared and afraid I was able to navigate through the fear, embrace my fear, and get to the root of it. I was afraid because I have zero control of how others will react, I was scared because I was trying something new on my own. Once I accepted I had no control over others; I was able to get back to why I wanted to offer this service. Once I began to believe in myself, the fear began to fade. I want to make people look good and feel great!
That is what I am here to offer and that is what I will continue to strive for.
To conquer our fears, we must accept our fears. In the world we live in it’s extremely hard to be vulnerable and share our fears, because we are all conditioned at a very young age that expressing our fears and being vulnerable is a sign of weakness. I’m here to tell you, it’s not! It’s a sign of strength and courage. Those who have ever opened by with me I have thanked them for their courage to be vulnerable with me. I know how hard it is to expose my weaknesses and fears with others, but here I am doing it; being open, raw, and vulnerable, to show that it’s okay to be afraid at times, we all are, but pushing through the fear can create such beautiful experiences in life.
I have been crippled by fear at times in my life and I have witnessed others experience the same. I’m here to tell you, you’re not alone. We’ve all been scared, whether it’s about the choices we make, things we cannot control, political affairs, the list goes on. Reach out to friends and family in these times of fear and anguish, be empathic towards others. Empathy can create revolutions within human relationships. Acceptance, empathy, and compassion are the greatest tools to have when battling fear.
I almost forgot to mention, I have been offering Champissage in the salon for the last week and the experience has been nothing but positive. All that fear for nothing.
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